Priorities

What are my priorities? Are they really that important to me? How is it that I don't know how to make them feel that they are the most important people/things to me? I'm taking them for granted and that makes me less than a person that I am. What just happened to me is something that I have wanted but I'm afraid to say that it made me regret and feel bad about it. This is another clichéd issue as a matter of fact but then this is the first time that I have just yet encountered.

On the night of the rainy May 7 of 2011, I went out with my friend to have a few drinks and on that exact night, I just lost myself my "ardent" suitor.

It's not that I don't have feelings for him but it went out as if I took him for granted. He said I needed my friends and I don't need him because lately, I didn't feel like going out or being with him anymore. He was the price in exchange of having my high school friends back. So I beg to disagree that life, in some ways, is unfair.

And now, it just dawned on me and I feel so guilty and bad about it. I hope this soon will be over because I really feel sick thinking about this. Love is not always that easy especially when you're not prepared to make someone feel your love or you can't stand on your decision to award them as the person that you're willing to prioritize.

So, stop crying over spilled milk.