Tears

I love the moment when I can feel something in my eye. The sudden urge of freedom from a tiny drop of tear would awaken me and when it  comes out of my eyes, it frees everyone, it's fellow tears as well as all that I have been feeling. I love how they moist away my angry and dull eyes, I love the way how it awakens me and when my boat is going to sink in, it would be the best experience that I would certainly miss.  

The reason why I cried tonight pays no relevance to my life right now. Maybe someday it will make sense to me, once I am old with age, joy, and perhaps regret. But what happened tonight made me realize that I have been long denying something that I should sometimes think about. Or maybe I should completely forget about it and go to sleep and in the morning, I won't be able to remember what was happened. Life is strange, perhaps. Once you fall asleep and dream, you are transported to another world, a world you fear and a world you have been wanting to stay. You see unfamiliar and familiar faces. You meet the superficials and you get to be in a place buried by age and time. How strange life is, by the time you wake up, they're gone and after a few hours, you won't even remember them, you won't even remember the feeling of waking up in the morning as the dreams you had comes speeding up your thoughts. They just dissipate without any reason, leaving you confused and bothered. 

As you fix yourself for a new day, you feel so happy. You go out with your friends, you laugh, you smile, you talk and you don't seem to notice what are happening to other people's lives. Maybe this is a reminder that we have our own lives to live but there will always be a time wherein we have to take notice. Is it because it makes us less selfish if we look around us and smile to a stranger or hand a coin or two to someone asking you for it? It could mean mostly anything. 

And you were walking around on a bright day and met someone. Someone who's going to make you smile for the rest of your life. Someone who will make you cry and stand up at the same time. Someone whom you can share your feelings, your life with. Someone... and then a kiss. A promise. The memories. Someone you will love. Someone.. how strange. You don't even know his name and you look at where you are, staring into the passing cars with your head in the clouds.

It's just gone.